The air outside is crisp and fresh as I peek out the patio window at the view before me. I just finished listening to a fabulous song by Michael W. Smith which found me sitting, eyes closed and heart open to the majesty of voices perfectly in tune to the spirit at hand. I almost felt removed from the present as voices and various instruments combined to form a haunting, yet magnificent melody of praise! My heart felt a familiar calling to join in and become one with the moment at hand.
This for me is a defining moment...for you see it has been quite awhile since I let my heart admit it misses being in tune to the melodies around me...silent I sit with yet a glimpse at what God has in store for me in the future. To sing is to share from the heart, without holding back the feelings of within. To stand before others, vulnerable to the opinions of the audience and yet caught up in worship as one heart, devoted to the glory of sharing from the soul.
And so I sit and ponder what it means to love enough to consider the cost of being ready and willing to take yet another step forward as a widow of only two years. My dear husband was the one I searched for when I stood to sing...his loving face gave me the confidence necessary to give my very best to the task at hand. It was his hugs which my heart longed for after the service ended. My one love of a lifetime.
"My soul magnifies the Lord" may be the one phrase which I feel captures my reason for living each day with grace...waiting for the plans He has to call me to a deeper understanding of his holiness at last. "Great is thy faithfulness" has become my mantra when days are long and time marches on in spite of my weariness and fatigue. "There is a Saviour" quiets my soul to the point of wishing I could be at once in heaven with those I hold dear! Oh and by the way the song by Michael W. Smith is entitled "I can hear your voice."
