This morning I could hardly wait to finish breakfast and dash out to the side garden for some much anticipated time with mother earth! The weather man predicted a blissful summer day, perfect for my not so gussied up garden girl attire. So I gathered the necessary tools, slipped on my (very) dirty shoes and tip-toed past the front yard in the shade to enjoy the view. Funny thing is, I can't sit still long enough to simply let the breezes blow... so I set to the task at hand.
I looked up just long enough to see the rabbits run by, then began weeding the beds on the side of the house. Clumps of yellow daylilies and tiny sprigs of uninvited grass kept me busy for the better part of an hour. All the while I cheerfully hummed along with Momma's piano as she let her fingertips make music with abandon. Every now and then I paused to smell the flowers on the hydrangea bushes with glee. Could life really be so simple as to allow me to lose myself in a garden of wonder?
Before I realized it my morning was spent and lunch was ready. I hurried to get ready to take my Momma to her radiology oncology appointment and that's when the reality of life hit me once again. Cancer had become a common word around our house. Ten month's ago my husband finished his brave battle with sickness and I said goodbye to my love of a lifetime. All the while knowing he was with our father in heaven, no more pain, walker, wheelchair, chemo, radiation, pain killers or nurses by his bedside. Free at last from the trials and disappointments of life.
I read some exerts from a book in which an author described his near death experience with the very cancer which took Dan's life. Seemed he just got lucky, or so the article claimed. My heart sank as I remembered the painful experience of hearing the word cancer for the first time from my husband as he gave the me results of his blood work nearly four years ago. Now my Mother is undergoing treatment for the big C also. Truth is we all suffer throughout the years we spend on earth. For some it seems more difficult than for others.
But there is a song in my heart even now as my mind finds comfort in knowing one day I will know a better life with God. The sting of death will not overcome the thrill of life eternal! For you see, we do not grieve as those without Christ. Our hearts are fixed upon the only hope this life can offer in the precious love of God. Forgiver of our sins, the ultimate sacrifice was given that we might one day dwell with Him. I may never be able to convey the hope my heart holds in knowing these truths. And yet I am free in the knowledge of my salvation. Yes, one day Lord we will see you, face to face!
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